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It was about -4 and it felt like it could be -30. I wanted to go outside for just a minute. In the winter one of my favorite things is when it gets cold you see your breath outside. I still love. It reminds me of life and it makes me feel so present in the moment.

I started out this year not quite sure what my goals and my path should be. I was asked recently in a card game “What Was Your Biggest Accomplishment?”. If you pause and reflect on that for a minute it's a big question. But, I time and time again keep thinking about the business I built years ago.

I think that I am on the path that I should be ok. I am going to write a lot of blog post and I am going to build some things and some of them may not be interesting or helpful. But, I am going to wake up and not be afraid of the following my curiosity.

Today is a beautiful day where we all get to start fresh and reset. We can forget about the things that have been and focus in a bit on the things that will be. Goals and Resolutions are what you make out of them.

This year I tried to make its goals and stick to them. I even got to the point toward the end of the year where I would review those goals at least once a week and mark my progress.

2017 marked an up and down year for me. Looking back on my goals that I started earlier in the year I missed a few marks. But, there was a lot of learning experience and a lot of work that I look back on with pride and excitement.

Take the time this week and think about some of the things that you want to do and change. But, we have to go after something. A small change can yield some huge results.

The goal this year was to read 20 books. It is New Years Eve and I am short just one book. I might try to sneak in a little reading time today but as of writing I am at 18 books. I also have a habit of reading anywhere from 2-4 books at the same time. Here is my list for the year.

Finished

  1. Murder on the Orient Express
  2. Reinvent Yourself
  3. The Choose Yourself Guide To Wealth
  4. Perennial Seller: The Art of Making and Marketing Work That Lasts
  5. Breakfast at Tiffany's
  6. Unbelievable
  7. What Happened
  8. You Are a Badass
  9. Angel: How to Invest in Technology Startups
  10. The First Collection of Criticism by a Living Female Rock Critic
  11. Who Thought This Was a Good Idea?
  12. Start with Why
  13. Hillbilly Elegy
  14. So Good They Can't Ignore You
  15. Sex Object
  16. You Don't Know JS: Up & Going
  17. The Fourth Transformation
  18. Your Inner Critic Is a Big Jerk

Currently Reading

  1. Tribe Of Mentors
  2. Design Systems
  3. Radical Self Acceptance

Terry Crews — How to Have, Do, and Be All You Want

Terry Crews is an actor and former NFL player and now start on the sitcom Brooklyn Nine-Nine. Terry sat down with Tim Ferris for an almost two-hour interview. I didn't know a lot of Terry's backstory before this show. But, there are some really honest and powerful moments in this conversation. Each time I listened to the episode I keep getting something out of it. Terry is just an inspiration to me.

These last few months, I haven’t been making good quality work. It has been stressing me out. None of the tricks that would normally work to get back to normal have been working. I have had a yearly goal to read 20 books. So, I decided to make a conscious effort to read more. Typically, I would be spending most of my time in the non-fiction section.

But, I wanted to change things up and I wanted to change my approach to reading. I am one of those people that highlight and leaves note all over the book. I also use the kindle app to markup up the book. But, I never do anything with them. But, I am going to use them. I am going to use them as sources of inspiration to ponder and to try and expand my thinking and go on a bit of a journey.

I feel like I am broken. I haven’t felt excited about anything that I am working on. The things that would normally bring me joy were bringing me nothing.

Early, this year there was a lot of excitement and my lot of energy. I was doing a lot of my goals and getting a lot of things done. I labeled them as experiments as I way to make me feel ok about thing sucking.

But, suddenly I stopped. I stopped doing the things that brought me joy. I stopped making time for the activities that felt like I was moving things in the right direction. I stopped making time for the things that gave me hope.

It didn’t happen overnight. But slowly, the mindset started to shift to “I will do that tomorrow.” But, tomorrow might not always come. My biggest fear is regret.

“How could I better say no to the noise to better say yes to the adventures I craved?”

This year, I tried a whole mess of stuff. I am really proud of all of the different things that I tried to do and the different things that I looked at it. I did a lot of things that are out of my comfort zone. That did a few things for me. It helped me figure out where are the places that I want to go and what do I want to spend sometime doing.

But, even with all of the testing and experimenting. I still find myself in this same spot and in this same area.

I am craving something. I can feel it every day and every morning that fire that burns inside of me. I can feel it when I go to bed at night just disappointed in the achievements of the day.

Am I just not honest with myself and my abilities to be the person that I want to be? Is the noise just to much and I just can’t see the adventure in front of me?

I bought my first Cryptocurrency on 11/2/2013. Like, I am sure a lot of people who were playing around back then. If they kept what they had it would be worth thousands if not millions. I didn’t have that much but I sure do wish I kept it in my wallet.

For, the people who are in the Bitcoin space. Have you ever tried to explain the currency or even the technology to someone? Did you get frustrated and give up? Did you show them your wallet and try to explain it to them in the simplest terms possible?

Just last week, I was trying to explain it the best way that I know how and I had people looking at me like I was talking a scam. And of course I got the naturally. “What weird shit are you buying online?”

Coming up there is going to be an interesting invent.

Episode 9 of the Big Bang Theory season 11, which will air on November 30, 2017, is entitled “The Bitcoin Entanglement,” and this will introduce bitcoin to a whole different group of people.

Now, you might be thinking that broadcast TV still doesn’t have the same power that it did say 10–15 years ago. But the show is going to be viewed by around 12 million people.

Bitcoin and other currencies have seen a steadily increase this month. But, it will be fascinating to see how many people start talking and asking.

I wanted today to special. I want every day to be special for you. Every morning, I wake up and I get to see the most beautiful person in the world. I get to see my best friend and the person I love most in the world every day.

Whenever we are apart I think about her. Whenever we are together I feel complete. I am the better person for having met her and a better person for having her in my life and have her inside my mind. It can be scary to let someone come into your world and have access to the library of your life. They can access all the files and all the books. But, I know you are my soulmate and this was supposed to happen.

But, every day I am grateful for you. I love you. Happy Birthday!

On this day, each year I just mark the calendar with a single letter. The meaning behind it is still painful to remember. I remember that day so well and so vividly over the years. I don’t remember much about my time in high school or college anymore. But, I can close my eyes and remember that day second by second.

I can’t help myself and I think back to that day and that moment when we found out what happened. As, I get older the memories are starting to fade and I want to keep something with me. I have nothing else except for these moments.

What it really is this that I don’t want to ever forget. I don’t ever want to let them down. I just hope they would still be friends with future me.